I'm seriously tired of everyone judging me. Who the HELL do you think you are? Stop talking about me. Don't pass stories along that you have NO idea about.
How is it that a person can almost drop of the face of the earth from a group of people, and yet still be the main topic of discussion?
I'm SO TIRED of it. Leave me alone.
Move on with your lives, and leave me out of them.
I've left you behind, why can't you do the same for me?
Is that really so much to ask...


(Yeah they talk about her
She smiles like she’s so tough
She says
"Hey can you talk a little louder,
I don't think my heart is broken enough")

I officially give up...  And may have started World War III down here in 'Bama.

So Friday night was Sean's birthday, to which he, Cristin (his girlfriend), and their friends all went out to dinner.  She got really mad at him, stormed off, then broke up with him an hour later through a text.  Apparently he spent the next two hours crying in the parking lot before going home...  To THEIR home (that's right, they just moved in together this week).  They were back together by the next night.

As you can see, I'm leaving out a TON of details, but I can fill you in on those later...  Anyway, she was fighting with him that night because he was flirting with some girl while they were at the restaurant sitting at seperate table (obviously a very serious and healthy relationship they have going...), AND because of me.  She's p-o'ed because I still talk to his sister and some of his friends on Facebook.  She also has been telling everyone that he's going "back and forth between" her and I and we talk all of the time.  FYI- We haven't spoken since December.  This girl is crazy.

So everyone is telling me everything that's been happening, and by the next night (Saturday), she makes him delete me from his friends list on Fbook, and he's never to mention my name or be in the same room with me again (even though she keeps me on HER friends list, and will come up and try to talk to me everytime we end up out at the same place...). Once again, this girl is CRAZY!!! 

Everyone's really worried about Sean and what she's doing to him, but no one will do anything about it (By the way, she openly admits and brags to people about how this is her 'thing', she finds a guy to date that she can be a huge bitch to, and castrates them until they can't do anything without her), so I decided to.  I know he was a jerk, and I know she's crazy, and I know that we haven't spoken is forever, but I spent too much time with him to just not care.  Here's what was said (texted):

Becky:  Seriously, you deserve better than her, and you know it...

36 minutes later, Sean:  Fuck you for saying that-you're a child.  Don't ever text me or even think about me again.

Wow.  That's not exactly what I expected...  I honestly wasn't trying to start anything, I just wanted him to hear it.  No one likes her, she's horrible.  I didn't know if he would even read it, and I figured that even if he did, he would just ignore it and not answer back.   What the hell?!  So I wait about an hour and a half and reply:  I wasn't trying to be mean, or start anything, I just don't like to see the people I care about getting hurt. 

I have yet to recieve a reply.  And who know's if I will.

Was I really that out of line?  Have I become "that" person, the horrible ex who tries to interfere in everything???  I guess I just hoped that maybe if he heard it from someone that he once cared about, maybe he'd stop and think.  But of course, it backfired.  I should have known.  Oh well, what to do now...

This sucks.
He sucks.
They suck.
I hate "suck".

Everything was going SO incredibly well.  I was totally in Love with Sean, as he was me.  I was "unofficially" moved in with Sean, to be "official" next week.  Tiegan was happy, she had a friend with her all day, and most of the time, either Sean or I were there as well.  I got the perfect job with the perfect company.
So Sean and I broke up.  My world is pretty much over.  I can't eat, nor sleep.  I've lost seven pounds in less than a week.  My lease is up on the 31st, and I've never looked at apartments down here, nor have I been saving for a Deposit for one.  Tiegan is now alone all day while I work, and also for most of the night, since I cannot bear being alone right now.  I found out that Claire's is playing with me, stringing me along with nothing to give. 
Why does everyone want to take so much, without thinking of anyone else.  I gave him everything I had, and he broke my heart.  I put every bit of strength into work, and they've ripped me off.
I don't understand.

This is a bitch.
He's a bitch.
They're a bitch.
I f'ing hate bitches.

Thank you Lindsey, for threating to kill December.  Thank you Dana, for calling your brother an asshole, and being there for me.  Thank you David, for randomly popping back into my life at the greatest time you could.  Thank you Maureen, for hating ''her'', and being my ally.  I couldn't make it without you guys.

I'm over it.  Over it all.  It hurts.  But I'll be okay.
This is my new beginning. And I'm going to do it right this time.  I don't need you, though I think I do...